I have realized something about myself in the last little while that I am not such a fan of. I tend to be extremely critical sometimes. Often I am hyper critical about myself, and other times (these are the more frustrating times) I am critical of others. I have been working it – consciously working on it – for a while now. This past weekend, I spent a long weekend with my Mom and my 3 big sisters having a girls’ retreat. It was so much fun! I sometimes struggle with my personal criticisms when about to gather with them, because they are so good in many of the ways I struggle. I often go into those times feeling like I am so inferior to my sisters on so many fronts. I take it way past humility and deep into the realm of self doubt and hopelessness even. This weekend I was determined to just keep embracing who I am and not worry too much about what they would think of me, and I mostly succeeded. It was better than I have ever been able to do that before.
Then came the really frustrating moment. It was not a moment when I was filled by self doubt, but a moment when I started thinking, “Well, why don’t they just do it like me? It’s so much better my way.” (more…)
Katie's Blog-ness 